11:11 thoughts

The other day you just flashed into my mind And how can I forget Your brown eyes and matching hair Borne into mine As we lie on the beach together hand in hand?

The wind blew softly against our faces Breathing life into old hearts With the salty air hanging lifeless above us

We were infinite Until you gave into temptation Juggling me and you With a dangerous rendezvous with alcohol

Night after night Your kisses were laced with vodka and coke Two shots, the way you liked it Two shots, the way you always drank it And you would make sure that you always got those Two shots Before you would even think of looking my way

Was it because I wasn’t a size zero Perfectly bronzed Or glasses free That you rejected me For a host of other girls Girls that were clearly prettier than I was

Every night I would pretend like you still loved me That you valued me over every single girl that you hooked up with And that gradually You will see that your one night stands Meant nothing But I was naive And you were just too impatient You left me high and dry With no goodbyes

But I suppose it’s for the best I don’t consider myself to be a world expert in love I feel like I am failing myself now But to be out of the so called love we once had I am eternally grateful.

©2019 Rachel Wong.